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dreetje @ 2004-07-31T11:56:00

2004-07-31T10:00:29Z

I live at arvensis nowadays. It's partially friends only though, so all the people that are on my friends list here and wanna be on there, add me and i'll add you back.

dreetje @ 2004-05-02T11:05:00

2004-05-02T09:08:53Z

Was, is and always will be THE idol of 2004. For me, anyway. Best of the women and only Boris above her, i am so proud of Maud. I'm going to see her at the day after show tonight live in the studios with Kenne and Janneke and i hope we can get pictures!!! :) That'd be so cool. Coz im gonna miss watching her every saturday!

As you can see i have no interesting things to say. ;) Bye now.

dreetje @ 2004-04-15T00:03:00

2004-04-14T22:04:07Z

Okee ik dan ook maar

Andrea, your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace

You have a deeply-rooted desire to make peace in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with loved ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to be able to influence the world in a positive way.

You have a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it, and you inspire others to feel the same way. Your innate drive toward peace guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others.

Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

dreetje @ 2004-04-13T21:36:00

2004-04-13T20:16:40Z

13 more. 13 days to go till my work placement is over. Seems like such a short time but it does fill up the coming 5 weeks. Which is okay because i need to finish lots of things before the end of my placement. I made a planning and it seems to work out allright. I hope so.

Today i did lots of stuff. I got up and made a little plan of what to do today, as my parents said i should do yesterday. I love my parents. They are so helpfull sometimes. No... almost always. But they are still parents, so not always. I sorted out a bag of paper and found lots of pictures from a few years ago.

I set myself on fire. Tried to refill the lighter and checked if it was working a few seconds later. My arms are bold now... all the hair got burnt off. Wow. It looks weird. Im glad the fire stopped really quick because i guess i didnt spill too much gas. Phew.

Im tired. Sleep.

dreetje @ 2004-04-13T00:03:00

2004-04-12T22:13:02Z

Awwww. I <3 Maud. En Frank is een eikel. Want hij zoent raar. Misschien omdat ze het niet gewend zijn die pers ofzo... maar het lijkt wel alsof hij het om de publiciteit doet. Maar daar vind ik hem helemaal geen type voor. Frank = raar.

Ow en nog een om het af te leren. Dees is lief. Again. :)

Het is lang geleden dat ik voor het laatst echt een idool-liefde-gevoel heb gehad. Ik denk dat ik geen film-idool mens ben. Ik wil luisteren naar liedjes en dan daar blij van worden, niet een film kijken. Dat kan altijd nog. Ik ben er blij mee. Ik ga weer stemmen zaterdag want ik wil meer mp3. En toch hou ik van Alan Rickman.

Genoeg nu. Slaap lief dagboek, slaap.

dreetje @ 2004-04-06T19:07:00

2004-04-06T17:25:12Z

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there because	you murdered everyone else
For _____ years	16
With
He/She will think you are	horny
You will	run far, far away

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Oh my god... i saw this on the livejournal ofadison that i happened to bump into. Decided to do it and out turns this, while her one said george bush! muhahaha! i expected Bin Laden to show up and up comes Jen mmmm!

Don't read this is you dont feel depressed

2004-04-04T20:45:17Z

I am affraid of death. Because i feel there's nothing there. That feeling has been creeping up on me in the past few days. Why would there be, is my main question. Faith and hope is what keeps us going. It makes us less affraid. No... It takes our thoughts away from the fear that there might actually be nothing there. I hate that someday my life will be over, sooner or later. I hate that because i would hate missing all this. All this here where we are now. This space of life thing. But then again, i have no reason to be angry. Nobody has. Why should we be angry at death when for the same reason we have been given life. Life is. So is death.

Why have i been having these deep thoughts? What is going on? I love livejournal. This has been my second way too deep post. Pollution for this journal.

You are. Out there. You are.
Nothing is beside you. No hope or faith.
No light on the outside, and even darker within.
Creeping upon me as my biggest fear

You were. Round here. You were.
When did you dissapear? Gave up on what is.
Shining a light on that darkness, burning whats within
Leaving me here with nothing but fear.

Time to breathe is all that i can ask for
I life to live is all that you can give
And still you creep, as all hope leaves me
Never will stop till darkness falls

But i will find my time and take what you've given
For that light was never bright without your darkness

dreetje @ 2004-04-02T22:49:00

2004-04-02T20:56:10Z

Suddenly it hit me. Unless a miracle happens, i'll never see you again. Never. And that must be a long time. How come you mean so much to me when i know so little about you... when i hardly know you. Maybe it's easier if you didn't mean anything to me. If i could just put you away in my memories, as someone who has been in my life but not a part of my life. But you are. And still i push what is going to happen away because you are not here. Because i don't have to face that things are coming to an end. I don't have to. But sometimes it hits me, like it did today. I'll never see you again. And that hurts. Because i miss you. And i don't really want to miss you. Not now, not ever, especially not forever..

dreetje @ 2004-03-23T09:49:00

2004-03-23T10:38:09Z

I love Maud. I liked Ron too, but hey he's gone. I still love Maud. No matter how those styling-bitches mess her hair up, i support maud. Maud for idol. She's got my vote... or votes :)

Went to the doctor this morning. Don't like them. Everything was not too ok, she let me go with a paper to make an appointment at the hospital to see what's wrong with me. I have to see for a few weeks how things go and if things don't get better i will have to go to the hospital. But i don't think it will get that far. So i'm not too worried. I can't believe it's only 10 am.

Time for a new journal.

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2004-03-21T12:58:00

2004-03-21T12:03:17Z

I love pink. Her show last thursday was soooo fucking brilliant. She is a tiger. Or a bee or whatever she was dressed up like. I'm not even gonna start to describe it. She is such a good singer, much better than on crappy award shows. I dont care if no one believes that either. She fucking rules.

I am broke. Haven't posted in ages. Have a new journal as username Arvensis but not using it too much and have no friends added either... so not really using it actually. My internet connection has been bloked because i didnt pay my bills.

On the way to bring Janneke and myself to Utrecht, car was fucked because gas-hole (g - ass hole) didn't wanna open so we couldn't go by car in the end. I dont like the car anymore. Being in the train was chilly. Or as Juul and i say these days (or is it just me) chillen met je lesbo billen (after the pink concert that filled the ahoy with dykes har har)

Went to see Lotte working at V&D that day. Muhahaha poor her had to deal with those dykes too. :)

Love,
Dee xx

These days... with George "Homophobe" W. Bush

2004-02-24T18:39:52Z

The time where George Bush is being a dickhead... all heterosexuals should read this questionaire and see what homosexuals these days still have to deal with.

Are you a Heterosexual?

What do you think caused your heterosexuality?

When and how did you decide you were a heterosexual?

Is it possible that your heterosexuality is just a phase that you may grow out of?

Is it possible that your heterosexuality stems from a neurotic fear of others of the same sex?

If you have never slept with a person of the same sex, is it possible that all you need is a good gay lover?

Do your parents know that you are straight? Do your friends and/or roommates know?

Why do you insist on flaunting your heterosexuality? Can't you just be who you are and keep it quiet?

Why do heterosexuals place so much emphasis on sex?

Why do heterosexuals fell so compelled to introduce others to their lifestyle?

A disproportionate majority of child molesters are heterosexual. Do you consider it safe to expose children to heterosexual teachers?

Just what do men and women do in bed together? How can they truly know how to please each other, being so anatomically different?

With all the societal support marriage receives, the divorce rate is spiraling. Why are there so few stable relationships between heterosexuals?

Statistics show that lesbians have the lowest of sexually transmitted disease. Is it really safe for a woman to maintain a heterosexual lifestyle and run the risk of disease and pregnancy?

How can you expect to become a whole person if you limit yourself to compulsive, exclusive heterosexuality?

Considering the menace of overpopulation, how could the human race survive if everyone were heterosexual?

Could you trust a heterosexual therapist to be objective? Don't you feel that (s)he might be inclined to influence you in the direction of his/her own orientation?
There seem to be very few happy heterosexuals. Techniques have been developed that might enable you change if you really want to. Have you ever considered aversion therapy?

Would you want your child to be heterosexual, knowing the problems (s)he would face?

dreetje @ 2004-02-17T22:59:00

2004-02-17T22:02:56Z

Oh my god... Wow.

I like!

My head's full of thought
Thoughts of you
And I'm distracted so easy
Thinking what to do
So unsure, so unfamiliar
Am I wrong to think that something could happen

Will you fall for me
I need to know, the way I'd like you to
Baby, will you fall for me
The way I've fallen for you

Im not like myself
And I'm playing the role of someone else
And my hearts beating so fast
I can't stop it
And Im so unsure
So unfamiliar
Am I wrong to think that soething could happen

Will you fall for me
The way I'd like you to
Will you fall for me
The way I've fallen for you

So unsure, so unfamiliar
Am I wrong to think,
That something could happen
Was I wrong to think I

Will you fall for me
The way I'd like you to
Will you fall for me
The way I've fallen for you

I'm falling for Delta more and more each day :)

dreetje @ 2004-02-17T14:42:00

2004-02-17T13:47:00Z

I love blenders. They rule. I love Janne for taking the blender over here. Thanks for arranging the meeting between me and the blender. Yum. Those mean weight loss shakes are gross but in a blender they are yummy. That is because of the banana and orange juice i guess... The powder is still yuck. I am not sticking on the stupid weight loss products anyway... they are not my kinda thing i discovered. That's why i'm going to the gym with amanda and cynthia because i need to get some energy! I am too lazy for a 21 year old. I'm too young to be lazy. Whatever. I am changing journals by the way. I don't like to be called dreetje so what the feck was wrong with me when i created this... :S

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2004-02-15T23:10:00

2004-02-15T22:21:17Z

For my special little someone... You're on my mind. I love you.

All around the world
Someone needs somebody
Let it be a shield
All around the world
Someone's feeling lonely
But I hope you never will

Cause when it all gets too much
Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
Now I don't know the things that you're going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Wear the storm till it blows over
I know you're there for me too
Know I'll be there for you

You're waiting for a change
You're waiting for the day
When all that you remember is with you once again
There's a long road ahead
Stretches out for miles
And if you want some company
I’ll walk with you a while
And when the road gets too rough

Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
I don't know the things that you're going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Wear the storm till it blows over
I know you're there for me too
So I'll be there for you
When it all gets too much

dreetje @ 2004-02-08T01:05:00

2004-02-08T00:05:55Z

How evil are you?

dreetje @ 2004-02-08T00:21:00

2004-02-07T23:22:55Z

Had to share this with yall. Didn't post anything lately coz i felt like no one is reading it but then the past week lots of people told me that they do but they just never reply ;) so here ya go.

Love, Dee

dreetje @ 2004-01-06T19:39:00

2004-01-06T18:52:19Z

I'm cold. I need to turn on the heat... feck i need to do much more than that. Yesterday was shopping bliss at ikea. I bought: 2 lights, a waterbottle for my new found addiction to Bar Le Duc mineral water, 4 cool blue glasses, 4 blue bowls, 3 tins for pet food, a massive cd-rack, a tv-table... yeah that's about it. And it needs to be fixed, like only ikea stuff can be fixed. Pleasure!

Time for the christmas tree to go out of the room. I remember that when moving in here someone had thrown theirs out of the window. And since my house is in a shopping street and it has a little roof over the platform where people walk, it was laying happily on that roof, escaping the big bad christmas tree destroyer people. It must have been laying there for at least a year. It's gone now. I wonder if they maybe fished it back up? Haha! Will i be in trouble if i chuck mine out? Probably (6)

I had such a nice weekend!!! Friday after work i went home to pick up my children ;) and hop off to my sisters new house to have dinner at hers with my parents and some other people which was really nice. Since my piepers (thats how im calling them pets nowadays) couldn't stay in the car they had to come up and everyone loved them, so they got lots of attention. After that i drove to nijmegen and i've been there till this afternoon, mostly sleeping and watching this big dvd offer dvd set. I like hanging out there... that's why i am doing it so often.

I had much more to write but i forgot. And still cold. And Ikea users manuals are waiting to be read and not understood. :) And i decided i don't like people who do the best they can to show others they lead a better life than the rest of the world.

Love,
Dee xx

A Brave New World Arrives

2004-01-01T15:37:48Z

Happy 2004!!! I love new years as much as i hate the last day of the year before. It depresses me that a whole year has passed! But so much has happened... I love how you can think back of all the things that have happened, the good stuff and the bad stuff you learnt from. Got such a big shocker standing on the scales this morning - have to do something about it! So a nice Bridget Jones start of the new year for me.

Had a really nice old years eve last night, spent it with unreleased2 and when it was twelve we sat in the attick room window for half an hour, watching all over rotterdam to see all the fireworks! Then we tried spraying champagne and it was much fun, but it was cold haha :) This morning i woke up to find rotterdam covered in snow! Wonderful, i love snow! It's 4.30 now and unreleased2 are going to see her mum in Nijmegen and then i'll be back off home on my own, work tomorrow!

Hope everyone likes my new layout... It's Hayley my sweet guinea. <3 her.

dreetje @ 2003-12-07T10:55:00

2003-12-07T09:59:34Z

Mr Rickman... such a great actor... I was watching his film Blow Dry last night and pieces of Dogma which Janneke bought for me and it made me think... Mr Rickman... You are so evil... And i love your eyes when you look down and appear to be thinking... And i just love you for being able to create something so sexy... when it is for me because i don't even LIKE men... and... and... you need to get your eyes lifted.

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2003-12-02T19:37:00

2003-12-02T19:12:19Z

It's tuesday evening and it's been a while. I'm sat in Janneke's room, on her kingsize bed with a laptop on my legs and next to me are the best three things that happened to me in the past few days: my new guineas!!! I finally got to take them home, they are about 5 weeks old and were born not too far from here on a little farm. The guy who owned them knows Janneke's dad and gave them to us for free! I'm happy person. I have five "kids" now! My 2 little birds and now 3 guineas! They are called Flake, Keyra and Hayley. Flake is the odd one out, coverd in different colours and when alone most of the time. She needs some special attention, which she obviously gets from me. Then there's Keyra (since Key means black in the graphical industry and this lil lady is all black except for one brown spot in her neck) who loves to beep. She's a little chatterbox like her sister Hayley. Hayley has been my favourite from the first time i saw them, when they were only 2,5 weeks old and sooooo small! I've had her picture on my phone ever since. She's a mixture of brown/black hairs all over and sooo pretty and a little explorer, walking everywhere while loudly chatting with her sister from a distance. And there she goes, climbing out of her little travel-box right at the moment when i'm typing this. I love them.

With the dixie chicks dvd on in the background i'm satisfied and listening to Green Apples (Janneke's band) who are rehearsing in the attic. They are such a good band... their drummer needs to take some lessons though, he's bringing them down. Oooh a new song in the list, nice one this is.

This week should be a nice one, offcourse it started out great when Janneke and i went to see Finding Nemo in the cinema and i absolutely looooooved it! Dude, that was fun!!!! I loved the turtles the most... and Dory's *whale* accent is great too. But i can not talk about it because kenne still has to go and see it and he will kill me if i talk about it before he has seen it. So when Green Apples finishes Janneke and i will drive back to Rotterdam in "our" car which is her moms but we borrowed it since she doesnt drive in it. Then tomorrow i have to have my lenses renewed, eyes checked, off to work and after work we're heading to Venlo to go and see the sneak preview of Scary Movie 3!!! Wooohooo! My grandpas birthday on thursday and Sinterklaas on friday! Yay, me and Janneke are celebrating that together on saturday and then green apples performance on sunday. I love being busy... :)

Love,
Dee xx

PS: While in the traffic jam at Breda today Juul and i were driving next to FRANS BAUER!!! We were like ooooooh and waving and he was waving back and he smiled and was soooooo nice!!! He kinda rocks :) and im not ashamed to admit it. Heb je eeeeeven voor mij jalalalalala *leve de foutness*

dreetje @ 2003-11-17T22:59:00

2003-11-17T22:07:22Z

"I pass by don't dare to stop
When there's someone I see
There's no one here but me
I'm fooled by something inside my head
If I lay down now
I might seem kinda dead
Just keep on wasting time"

- Lene Marlin / Where I'm Headed</div>

It's been a while. Been kinda busy... but then again i haven't really. Full of positive spirits but can't seem to give them a good place inside my head. I might one day.

Have a few people interested in renting the attic room of my appartment. Only one really speaks out now, but it's only email so i dont know what will happen. Something has to happen though, i need the money so bad! Work is going okay, im busy on some interesting projects. And for the rest i really dont have anything interesting to write. I just can not be bothered :P

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2003-11-08T18:59:00

2003-11-08T18:00:07Z

I'm lovin' it :)

Like the new layout?

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2003-10-30T12:42:00

2003-10-30T11:52:58Z

Mmmm... Just woke up from a 12 hours sleep, i needed that! I called off work because i wanna stay here and help Janneke out with all she has to deal with, so we both slept in really late! Yum! I'm going back to rotterdam tonight to keep my birds company and update my sisters graduation pictures, etc. That should be nice.

I went home yesterday afternoon to find my other guinea dead as well. It was soooo sad. They were both ill when we bought them and i think the long time alone was too much for the little creature... :( Poor thing. Im gonna miss them both but i am very angry at the shop. Never buying pets there again. There's this new law here in holland that when you buy a pet and it dies in less than 6 months you can go back and ask for a new pet. Well i dont wanna lose 2 more pets so i want my money back to buy them somewhere else. Only this time ill buy one and only when my life is settled coz its still a bit of a chaos.

I expected everything to be so settled when i started my new work but it's only a bigger chaos. I get confronted with living on my own when i come home from work and i dont like that. So i end up going to nijmegen and staying here for what, 8 hours with 6 of those being asleep, and then going on an early train to rotterdam again. I really dont mind though because i love being here and i love being with janneke because we get eachother better every day and we do fun stuff, speshly now shes got her mums car and we can drive anywhere we want! I can drive, she cant, so lots of prectase for me since i dont drive that often. I just wish my life was a little less chaotic...

Love,
Dee xx

dreetje @ 2003-10-27T19:56:00

2003-10-27T19:02:31Z

Okay. One more thing. If you haven't laughed today, you will now. And i will blush once more. Here we were, happily together in Utrecht. Cafe, after the ceremony of my sisters graduation. I had my lovely digital camera, yeah nice. You can run through the pictures taken. Stoopid me had pictures still on there from saturday afternoon when me and janneke went posh clothes shopping and i optimistically picked some clothes that were way too small for my body. Especially certain parts. ;) Anyway, we took pictures of it because it was fun and there was one picture of my cleavage in a red pamela anderson like top that i kept because kenne wanted to see it and there goes my sisters boyfriend skipping through the pictures and landing there... Oh My God.

*blush*

*grabs camera*

*dies*

R.I.P. Me

dreetje @ 2003-10-27T19:46:00

2003-10-27T18:55:20Z

Only covered eyes
could ignore her beauty
coz she came straigt from heaven
who would not fall in love
with that look in her eyes
or that smile
she's an angel

I just arrived in Nijmegen to spend the night here and in the train i had so many plans but i didn't have a pen to write them down. So i ended up listening to di-rect and that she song is so sweet and simple, i love it's cheesyness :) I like kiddiepop, so f*ck me. So yeah, many usual ideas on my mind and lots of things to do this week. Have phones and business to take care of, got tomorrow off, then work on wednesday, thursday and friday and then friday evening halloween night in Nijmegen!!! Woohooh!!! No way we are watching Arachnofuckingphobia, it's the scariest film coz it has spiders in it! Yikes!!! So help me, so help me, so help me! I will be sleeping ;)

I feel awkward now that time's gone back an hour. My body and mind are not used to it yet. Today was nice, my sister graduated her pharmacy study!!! She will be continueing untill june and then she will be Master of Pharmacy and there will be a bigger party! Wahey, im so proud of my schwester!!!

Oooh there's janneke, better get going and give her a warm welcome hug!

Love,
Dee xx